LIFE?

Its a bit confusing for me but still here I am trying to understand it gradually. So what do I think about life? For me its the small things that make me either happy or sad. Maybe cause for me to understand the actual meaning of life it will take time. Its 3rd March today if you ask me how i am feeling today i wont have an answer for it. 

I'm confused, lonely and there are so many emotions running down my spine. For me life is bit complicated to understand maybe because I am only 19 or maybe i don't want to understand what life actually is. I'm just scared how dark or prosperous life can be and how many people will I have to love or face them. Life is just so unpredictable that u don't know if u have tomorrow or not, maybe cause of that I might be sacred to know what life actually holds for me.

Right now I'm just trying figure out how to score good marks or how to spend my day. For me it will take time to totally understand the true meaning of life.